If you didn't want me to go, you could have said it. It's either a yes or a no, not a 'I don't mind'. You wanna study or spend time with your family alone, do it. I wont stop you, as much as I want to be with you and spend time with you, I would never stop you from your schoolwork and especially your family. I feel as if you feel that spending time with me is so.. annoying. If you don't want to be with me, don't feel as if you can't say it, because I'd much rather that than having to figure it out myself. I know that the way you mean things is different to the way that I interpret them, but you said you'd take that into consideration. If you know that I interpret things differently, why would you do the same thing that we had problems over last time?

I'm always a happy person, and I barely let things get to me, but how come with you, every single thing gets to me? Not just some things, but literally, everything? How come when one little thing goes wrong, it effects me more than anything else effects me? It always leaves me questioning what we're doing, what I'm doing, if it's right, if this is right.. I don't wanna question us. I love you, more than I love anyone else, or any other guy I've been with. I don't care how cliche it is, but I do. You have no idea how much effort, strength, and everything else I have into this relationship.

I never put up with anyone's shit besides my own, if I didn't love you, I would have left a long time ago. I know that this isn't the end, but why does it feel like it? You tell me to talk to you when I wanna talk about things, but how do I go about doing it? I know that to sort problems out you need to talk about them, but we shouldn't have problems. Why am I questioning us.. I know we're going to fight, and I know we're going to have problems, but I don't want to have them, this isn't us. I know that this isn't the end, I know that this is a tiny problem that we're going to have to deal with, and we're going to encounter many of these along our relationship, but just give me time. Give me time to deal with everything, to see what I'm doing wrong, to see what I do and don't like and to see how I can fix my own wrongs, but maybe you should have some time to yourself to see the same things that I'm trying to see.

Please don't give up on me.. I just need this space, and you need it too, to clear out our minds.