When I went to Liverpool, I met up with Charmaine, Isabel, Bridgette and Emem. While Isabel was in line with me at Maccas I cried on her shoulder.. I don't know what's going on with me. I hate crying more than anything else, and here I am, crying in public. I told her what happened, and then we sat to eat. Jet came and most people left to do something, and Jet could tell something was wrong. He kept asking what was wrong and I eventually cried, again. Emem gave me tissues and water and Jet knew what was wrong.

He was talking to me about it, and something he said really made me think..

"If you really love someone, you're going to put up with their shit. You need to understand him and he needs to understand you. If he's putting up with your shit and you put up with his, you guys love each other. You shouldn't let 'nothing' fights get in the way of that, of something you want. If you guys need to take a break for a while, do it, but never let 'nothing' fights ruin something you worked so hard for."

After that, nearly the whole day I was thinking what to do.. At one point I had decided that I wanted to take a break, like 3 days or something, especially since I have exams, but I didn't know how to say it.. Then I thought I would just ignore it for a few days, but then I knew Morokot would know something was up. In the end I didn't know what I wanted to do.. I think it was when we were in the car with Jet and Jasmine that I realised what I wanted to do.. I didn't wanna take a break, didn't want any ignoring, didn't want anything like that.. I wanted to stay how we were. I know we can get through this, because I'll make sure we will. I know that if we took a break I would regret it so much, and I don't even know why I was thinking like that. I love this boy, and I'm going to put up with every little 'nothing' fight that we have, and I wont let shit like that ruin something I worked so hard to get. We've put in so much effort in this relationship, and I don't want to ruin it. I can't imagine not being with him, even for just a day.. Even if we were broken up for a day. I wouldn't last.. I'd go crazy.

Sometimes you just need someone else to tell you and give you their opinion and tell you their stories. Jet told me how he and Jasmine fought so many times last night.. 6 fights in one night actually, and look where they are now.. They're still as good as they were years ago. This stuff takes time. It doesn't fix itself in one day.. Sometimes I just feel as if one little fight makes all the effort go to waste, but I guess thats just a con of a relationship. Seeing Jet and Jasmine, it just gives me some kind of hope.. Like I know I wanna be with this boy for a long time, no matter how many fights we have, no matter how much we change, no matter how much we argue and say shit, I don't care what happens, just as long as I'm with him in the end.

After watching Final Destination 5 for Gerina's birthday outing, we went to drop Isabel off. After dropping her off, we went to Dylans house to 'crash' his 'party' which turned out fail. We ended up watching Jackass for like 2 hours and eating some food. I think that was the best part of my day, just chilling with everyone made me feel so much better..

I was so silly to cry like that in public. Oh well.. But omg, tomorrow, yay beeeeeach! But.. I just got my periods :( bummer. I hope tomorrow is a good day.